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[29 January 2004|10:44pm] |
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life sucks... i had ISS today, it was okay cause i got to sleep the whole day away with drugs. i have ISS tomorrow again too. oliva is getting her plates and were gunna meet up with bobby then head out east
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6 got out the way|move bitch
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| fuck schoool and the fucking system fuck em all |
[21 January 2004|06:54pm] |
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im in so much fucking trouble right now and im waiting 15 minutes to have my lecture. jesus crist i broke down in the principals office about my shitty life and they needed 3 people to hold me down. anyway i guess i've been holding my feelings in again and thats why i've been doing alot of drugs... cause thats my only get away.
anyway the principal is getting me a psychiatrist and were going in for a parent teacher confrence. i did ^^*&%&*# before and i feel really good right now today today i wanted to commit suicide and was crying the whole entire day at school.
rob and lorr talked to charlene and she helped me look good now its my turn to talk... i dont think im in deep shit ,,,,, they are being so nice to me cause i think there scared im gunna freak out again. i hope i dont go back to florida even though i said to rob today i wanted to .... ugh someone helppppppppppppppppp
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1 got out the way|move bitch
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| happppppppppppppy neeew yeawrrrrrrrrrrrrr |
[01 January 2004|12:46am] |
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anywaty fred gave me oxicontinns percocets and mikes hard lemonade he is honesytly the best brother around. well gappt new year guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111
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1 got out the way|move bitch
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[30 December 2003|01:57am] |
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for those of you who care..... i no longer need drugs to function... unfortunatly this will only last until a week or so until i go back home. this is a realllllllly great feeling.. being able to wake up and not wonder if it'll be a good day or a bad day depending if i have drugs or not. i still have the urge for them, but i dont feel like killing myself when i dont have anything in my system..... yeah its prob the best feeling in the world, and really hard to explain....
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[20 December 2003|08:38pm] |
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i love comming to my moms house and finding her percription pills :) shes almost as much as a pill popper than i am. hey... at least i admit to it .... thats the first step to recovery.................... right??
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2 got out the way|move bitch
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[20 December 2003|11:48am] |
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yeaaahhhhh so here i am... florida for 3 WEEKS.... eh i guess its better than i expected... olivia gave me amph and valium for christmas so i wont kill myself down here but i did most of the amph on the plane ride and only left a lil bit and the rest of the valium for myself... ahhh i woke up the other day and realize im such a fucking pill popper. i should just die. okay talking about this is really getting me pissed off. my nieces and nephew are driving down on the 28th i might as well kill myself alltogether. bye bye.
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1 got out the way|move bitch
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[29 November 2003|05:05pm] |
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alotttt has happened and i feel like i havent talked to my friends in quiet some time :-(
thanksgiving was good went to see the parade flirted with some security guys with charlene then took the subway to my kick ass g-ma's house and ate mad good food.... morning after t-day lorr and rob finally decide to take a look at the roaches in my apartment and varified they were roaches... which was a fucking horror story in itself. charlene is a slob and INFESTED MY STUFF WITH ROACHES.... i am so pissed.............. I'VE BEEN DOING NOTHING BUT KILLING ROACHES AND EMPTING OUT THE SHIT IN MY APARTMENT ALL FUCKING WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!! there are roaches laying 40-50 eggs everyyyyyyyyyyyyywhere... and im not just saying that.... there in the thermostate, dead ones in her night drawer she knew about, atlas books, there was at least 3 lives ones in all her bags that were jumping out to me and rob. so yeah im pretty pissed i spent the whole weekend at the laundry-mat high. gar. all my stuff is outside wet from the rain and wearing the same outfit for 3 days and sleeping upstiars on the couch. i see my mom tuesday
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[22 November 2003|04:27pm] |
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everything is so great.
if i had a cigarette.. i'd have an orgasm right now
i dropped the iron on my arm :-(
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[19 November 2003|03:59pm] |
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so its been a long time... i hate the internet anyway.. it totally fucking sucksssss. good thing i dont own a computer.......
but yeah i decided to be a nice sister and use the computer upstairs tonite.
i rented pulp fiction.. that movie is nuts especially when the uma's nose starts bleeding from snorting what she thought was coke but really john travolta's extremely pure heroin.. seemed unrealistic how it hit her so fast.. can your nose even bleed like that from snorting? hmmm ...
rob is mad at me for my report card, because i do my homework in study hall and figures i dont do it since he never sees me doing it.....
biology: 93
gym: 90
math: 72 (thought i did really really bad)
math lab: Satisfactory
social studies: 74
forensic science: 87
english: 80
art: 100
overall average: 83.3
if he only saw how much i improved from syosset and florida. he would really be a super happy guy...
im burning new cd's cause allllllllll mine are scratched and i get killer headaches from em.
um yeahh i gained 9 pounds this week and nothing can stop me from eating, notthing! not even tweak. i did some today and im starving. rob is gunna buy me mcdonalds because ima fatass... hmmmm yeah so i guess ill gooooooo i dont really have anything super to write.
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2 got out the way|move bitch
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[14 November 2003|08:20pm] |
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im totalllly so friggin boredddddddddd. garrrrr i hate when people dick me over. jesus i hope i see my real cool friends this weekend to make up for this shitty friday.
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[07 November 2003|12:28pm] |
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im so calm right now, i did a bunch of amphe today, this shouldnt be happening. the only thing i can think of is that the methandone lasts 24 hours and i last took a piece of it around 4pm yesterday. hmm i have more but im saving it for people i promised hmm hope after i smoke a few cigarettes it'll kick it in... maybe at 4 the meth will leave my body and ill feel a lil better
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[06 November 2003|10:53pm] |
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i am possibly the coolest person in the world and sometimes i can just kiss myself... sometimes..
anyway, yeah. i didn't break my promise to tanya as i said & finally talked to Bobby regardless of his intimidations!!!
hoho yeahhh
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[05 November 2003|05:31am] |
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okay so i didnt sleep yesterday or tonight... what the helllllllll is too early for this im gunna go eat some cocoa pebbles.
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2 got out the way|move bitch
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| to the winddddddddddddows |
[03 November 2003|10:37am] |
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hello im looking at the ikea website and i just am going crazy wanting to buy everything... perhaps ill make a wish list for my housewarming party so one you love bugs can buy me a dresser .... i should really have a tupperwear party.. or a candle one! ....lorraine went to a 'fuckaware' party..yeah maybe ill throw one of those too yes as you can tell in tweaked, and i get very excited thinking that im moving out of my shit-hole coffin when im on it :-D... god these press on nails are a scratch in my flesh im going to rip them off now and spit them at that libraian...
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| halloween |
[31 October 2003|12:34pm] |
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so they finally unblocked this site. charlene came over with tommy yesterday and im getting the apartment downstairs!!!!!!! i cant wait.. so i guess ill start moving in within a couple of days. i gotta go to ikea and buy a dresser so it doesnt look like im saving 300 this month...
yeah so yesterday i cut 4th took 2 morphine pills and smoked some pot... went back to school ripped but thats okay because it was a pretty shitty day. well happy halloween kids!..... :-)
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[29 October 2003|03:02pm] |
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i came home today and rob & lorr offer me & charlene the apartment downstairs because jarvie boy is leaving... but i know charlene is gunna turn it down cause she lives with mike & know one is supposed to know that. they were dead serious about it cause they were all like... this means you'll have to still come here and wake us up when you come home. (so they can basically sniff the shit out of me)
that would be pretty damn cool if charlene takes the offer.
its so sad how they want to get rid of me so badly, but hey it benefits me as long as i pretend to be an angel. :-D
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[27 October 2003|08:59pm] |
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im so fucking upset with myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im never gunna be clean again.
im gunna go cry because the whole world is dissapointed in me.
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3 got out the way|move bitch
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| friday night in tusie roll world |
[25 October 2003|01:54am] |
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Tanya is sleeping on Linda's couch and Linda is tres bored seeing that shes going to be staying up allllll night alone from this shit. argh, bummer.. i guess ill play some candy land by myself or turn butter or something. today was really messed up (plan wise) i dunno what i was thinking but somehow totally switched today with tomorrow and screwed up everyone's plans. but it was fun helping tanya tits pack for her cool new house, and walking in 2 degree weather to stop and flop and meet up with joe.. yeah maybe ill drink some warm milk and benadryl so i can wake up early tomorrow and get things done with, with olivia then hang out with tanya, joe, & a whole lotta angelina foxy jolie :) peace out
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[22 October 2003|07:11pm] |
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my mommy called up and asked me if i wanted to go on the disney cruise with her and lou.
... ahhh soo itchyyyy.
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